Something About What happened to me
1. I have found a job and I work really freaking hard now.
2. I want to get a guitar and Im going to get one.
3. I have got a new msn account.
4. I have only got 9 people in the list.
5. Im enjoying being a single now.
6. Im so into Korean Songs and Zombie related stuff in these days.
7. I really hate my sister about what she did to my parents.
8. I really hate myself about everything.
9. I'm just not who I was.
10. I now really dont give a shit to anything except my parents, univ and work.
11. I really dont know what I want, especially in the field of teenage love affair.
12. I'm so pissed off by all the ladies except my one and only mom.
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Something I want to say
a. Thanks to Church people for showing so much care =).
b. Thanks to friends talked to me, that really ease my sadness =).
c. Thanks to my parents, you're always so kind to me; you're always the best parents in the world.
d. I really got angry about what happened on October 17th. I really do. If you dont wanna drive me or you just simply dont want to see me and go your date, just simply tell me BUT PLEASE DONT MAD OR YELL AT ME! You're the one who asked to cancel the thing.
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Something Im gonna do
I. This xanga will not be updated till I get my offer.
II. I will have my msn closed (remain as offline) till further notice in Xanga.
III. I will not pick up the phone from friends till further notice. My cell will remain on, the reason is I dont want to miss the call from work lace, univ, homestay and my parents.
IV. There is noway and nobody(with the only exceptions mentioned in III) can reach me.
V. Facebook account will be cancelled/Deactivated.
VI. Yea, in other words, Im gonna "DIVE".
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Conclusion
************************** Im feeling so hurt and regret. I just wanna be isolated.***************************
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Sorry to Nancy Luk Hoi Lee. I was so freaking deeply hurt by what happened an year ago. I just cant take another risk of being dumped again. Thats gonna drive me to suicide if that happens again. Sorry for being so selfish and defensive. I dont deserve your love. I wish you all the best and hope you can find a really nice guy soon.
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Sorry to "SOMEONE", Im just not gonna be able to keep my promise. Im sure you will be fine without me. You have got BABA and Christina with you. Yea, youll be fine. Im Sorry.
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SEE YOU GUYS LATER, MAY BE =) WISH YOU ALL THE BEST.
This policy will be adopted @ 3:00pm (Ca TIme), October 18th, 2009.

Happy Birthday to Yuiman Jai =)
Hope you can get into your favourite prog and ... yea, all the best man. (Especially with your girl)
I had a really nice day with you.

Congratz to Clement at the same time.
Jon and I are the only single now, so sad =(
Anywayz, Good luck and bring your girlfriend to church!

I had a really nice talk with Yuiman today.
He really knows me quite well.
After telling him the whole thing, he just concluded I don't really love that girl.
Thinking about it all over again, he's probably right.
I'm so relieved now.
At least, knowing before getting started seems better.

I also thought about my future in these days.
Like, should I change prog after getting univ?
OR should I just study hard and try to be a pro in that field.
It really makes me so confused.
Anywayz, may be I can save this question for later.
One thing i need to keep in mind, I need to work FREAKING + GOD DANG hard to catch up. No matter what it takes.

Sad Movie (Kr Romance Movie)
I highly recommend this movie. I think it is the only movie can make me cry, i didn't though.
So freakin touching!